The Hindsight Notes, by Cold Night For Alligators

The Hindsight Notes

by Cold Night For Alligators

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1.	Behind Curtains 04:15	lyrics	buy track
Behind the curtains, veiled Wrapped in cloths, in silence Below the surface, blind It’s the reason I bow Why would I ever try to push away, push away? Why would I ever try to push away, push away? Where is my home now? Can’t you see, what I see, my deceit, oh Chained by these hopes, I Purposely, take no lead, my defeat , oh Where is my home now? The directions repressed its needs Pick me up, pick me So let me find a breach Pick me up Caught in a storm of lies Neglected feelings, so bright Truth lost its track with time Polluted my own mind Why would I ever try to push away, push away? Why would I ever try to push away, push away? Where is my home now Can’t you see, what I see, my deceit, oh The directions repressed its needs Pick me up, pick me So let me find a breach Pick me up, pick me up Before I burst
2.	No Connection 03:53	lyrics	buy track
I see the reason For what it’s worth I see its power and the elation it creates Create, waiting for the thrill of it It's just a getaway I’m beginning to see You are the hero Endless echo Endless control Leaving them with real blood Endless echo Endless control Waiting, waiting for It brings you fire Soul with no depth Can't you see the sickness under our skin It brings you reason A room for truth please restore, the legacy of the former you Create, waiting for the thrill of it It's just a getaway I’m beginning to see You are the hero Endless echo Endless control Leaving them with real blood Endless echo Endless control Waiting for, waiting for It's not easy to show Waiting for, waiting for It's not easy to show Endless echo Endless control Leaving them with real blood Endless echo Endless control Waiting, waiting for I need you to hold on and open the door I need you to hold on and open the door
3.	Verism 03:29	lyrics	buy track
Hope is everything I have Its presence’s been lost way to long Hiding in adrenaline Pleasure is lost in its grip Everything is real Its mark is too real to see My mind is my shield Slowly losing its vigor I met my fear inside this flame My ignorance taking aim Shooting right through me It wants to consume me Hate is crawling in my thoughts Fade into a gloomy solitude Locked out of reality My mind is trapped in a guillotine Everything is real Its mark is too real to see My mind is my shield Slowly losing its vigor I met my fear inside this flame My ignorance taking aim Shooting right through me It wants to consume me Behind this old mask I plead In truth, I found hate and greed When everything’s too real When its mark is too real to see My mind is my shield Slowly losing its vigor And when there's not much too feel My heart keep pushing the trigger I met my fear inside this flame My ignorance taking aim Shooting right through me It wants to consume me Behind this old mask I plead In truth, I found hate and greed
4.	Water 06:16	lyrics	buy track
Asleep or real, was I ever really here? These memories are mine, I fear Pick it up, with own hands It’s with dust we try to build a land Once again throw my body into A wall full of wild roses City enigma, city enigma, city enigma I’m out here in the open The more I have the less my body feels Hiding on the ocean, frozen This is how frustration feels Can I swim through tides of changes? Can I swim through tides of changes? I could use the rest of me A burr builds up inside my throat Move along with no fear In memories they appear I’m out here in the open The more I have the less my body feels Hiding on the ocean, frozen This is how frustration feels Can I swim through tides of changes? Can I swim through tides of changes? Pull it back A pale heart built up by dissonance I grew up around scars Silence brought these scars I found peace in the storm I found rest in its warmth I’m out here in the open The more I have the less my body feels Hiding on the ocean, frozen This is how frustration feels Can I swim through tides of changes? Can I swim through tides of changes? We are out here Tracing steps near In the river light Run away from fear We are out here Tracing steps near In the river light Run away from fear We are out here Tracing steps near In the river light Sorry to those who entered my mind Shared my eyes
5.	Dusty Patterns 05:11	lyrics	buy track
It tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back Tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back Dear lust you are my, only father in the night My mind is flooded, staring into a broken linn Time is a mountain, surrounding every little sin, beliefs scattered Into these velvet walls, I carved my anxiety So shattered, dusty patterns Does it mean you walk, in this silence Among us Does it mean you see, in this silence Among us, among us I am better Stall its power, seek cover I will keep screaming ‘til the end In my end, my end I will keep screaming In my end, in my end It tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back Tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back We're only human, only human, with our own beliefs Another soul Another lie has been told Another soul Lost in lust Does it mean you walk, in this silence Among us Does it mean you see, in this silence Among us, among us I am better Stall its power, seek cover I will keep screaming 'til the end In my end, my end I will keep screaming It tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back Tells us to live our lives Live or die Please come back, my only friend Please come back I will keep screaming
6.	Nostalgic 03:29	lyrics	buy track
Will you ever understand or change Would you rather leave us in your savage ways A heartfelt hate you will, engrave Into our silence and into our ways It's a trial A battle filled with endless pride Did you try? Old wounds they will permeate Cast away your own fear and pride Instead of you attacking mine Your passion turned its face, inside It parted ways, and turned off the lights Our strength keeps silhouettes restrained Your heavy hands, are pulling us down It's a trial A battle filled with endless pride Did you try? Old wounds they will permeate Indifference has no name But it lives in all of us It’s a machine that feeds on grief The winner takes it all In all of us, in all of us I see you hate, you want to feel nostalgic But we are changing these chemicals It's a trial A battle filled with endless pride Did you try? Old wounds they will permeate
7.	Adjust 05:21	lyrics	buy track
I thought that I had seen it all Push my body against the wall Remain, remain, remain strong Remain, remain, remain strong Dirt flows inside your lungs Boy your eyes say it all Remain, remain, remain strong Remain, remain, remain strong You're still here, though history tried I know you fought a thousand nights in vain You fought in vain I am still afraid out here I am still afraid my dear And don't fight in vain No I thought that I had seen it all Push my body against the wall Remain, remain, remain strong Remain, remain, remain strong You painted the pictures for so long But you just forgot to move at all Remain, remain, remain strong Remain, remain, remain strong I am still afraid my dear You're still here, though history tried I know you fought a thousand nights in vain You fought in vain You're still here, though history tried I know you fought a thousand nights in vain You fought in vain I am still afraid out here I am still afraid my dear
8.	Worn out Mannequin (feat. Kim Song Sternkopf) 05:19	lyrics	buy track
I was marching on Life just went along It was medicine It belongs where I go Not a show it's my mirror Stuck in its reflection It's where I go I am marching on And they sing along It's my medicine It belongs where I go Not a show it's my mirror Stuck in its reflection It's the road I go You beg me for my soul Dig deeper to see These epochs changing me Forever I am, forever I cannot see A self-made narrative is what is given Naked and buried I finally feel blind eyes still seek My soothed mind still speaks Please let me be You beg me for my soul Dig deeper to see You want me to deliver And it makes me bleed You whisper your attack, whisper lies Share your breath with me, you swallowed mine Keep in mind there is still a hope Need that remedy, godspeed Leaving the silence behind doors so thin I laid my body down to hear the sound I don't belong here I don't belong Leaving the quiet behind doors so thin I laid my body down to hear the sound I don't belong here I don't belong I don't belong here I don't belong You beg me for my soul Dig deeper to see You want me to deliver And it makes me bleed You whisper your attack, whisper lies Share your breath with me, you swallowed mine Keep in mind there is still a hope Need that remedy, godspeed We are here We are Every night so confused Trapped in my own abuse Courtesy courtesy Dark and blistered Worn out mannequin The end
9.	Thin Line 04:31	lyrics	buy track
We have big little lies, big little The wail helps to find relief High enough, is it high enough We have big little lies, big little Stripped and forever burned High enough, is it high enough Head’s blazing visions Pushed by beliefs Life’s exhibition It is mine to bleed My eyes, my eyes, all dried out Stand on weakened ground My eyes, my eyes We all have big little lies Built up and denied I have big little lies of my own We have big little lies, big little The wail helps to find relief High enough, is it high enough We have big little lies, big little Stripped and forever burned High enough, is it high enough Standing on a thin line Crushed by a leaf Ignored all decisions That were mine to meet Send all my flaws With these ships, passing tonight My flaws We all have big little lies Built up and denied I have big little lies of my own Picking up pieces of gold Wisdom shows its soul And builds up its own dynasty We have big little lies, big little The wail helps to find relief High enough, is it high enough We have big little lies, big little. Stripped and forever burned High enough, is it high enough 40 days in silence
10.	Hindsight 06:33	lyrics	buy track
My heart was black from the start Cover art Don't judge a book by its cover I'm a mess, more or less My head so squeezed, can’t recover Got to find something, need to find Live to be someone Even with a bitter taste Go to waste Unfold my own true colours See the flame, in my eye How to become my own discoverer Got to find something, need to find Live to be someone Yeaah I was up against I was up against the wall so blind Up against the wall so blind I cannot take it in My world is in between the lines Fearful howl There is nothing to discover Hold my ground, locked and bound Scavenge on needs and desire Got to find something, need to find Live to be someone Yeaah I was up against I was up against the wall so blind Up against the wall so blind I cannot take it in It is pushing me All of me, all of me, all of me You didn't see, you didn’t see See me running You didn’t hear, you didn’t hear Hear me calling All of me, all of me, push to see All of me, all of me, lies awake The way you’re pushing me You didn't see, you didn’t see See me running You didn’t hear, you didn’t hear Hear me calling You’re pushing me Frustration builds Look up, don't you hide You’re pushing me away You didn't see, you couldn't hear You never sensed, I was running Hear my call The way it pushes me The way it pushes me The way it pushes me